I took my last exam today, which was essay writing, and I'm feeling very proud because I understood the questiona and I wrote the right content! Hahaha, please please give me a B...
I'm definitely enjoying life right now, no school, no homework, just studying the only subjects left that I love...Science and Business Studies :)
Anyways I want to talk to you about this problem that I think I have and I think it's weird. Like really weird.
And it often gets in the way of my life.
I think I have like multi personalities and I'm not even joking.
Like you might not see it because only when I'm with you then I combine those two together, my innocent side and my evil side. Which together is just normal me.
It's not like I 'pretend' to be someone I'm not, I just don't reveal that other side.
I haven't done anything bad for a while and it's like suddenly I've reincarnated myself into a whole new innocent person who's never done anything bad in life. I don't like it when people say really nasty things like 'tits' and like 'pussy'. And I think kissing is yucky. No joke.
I remember that time when my ex went away for a while and when he came back it was so weird for me to be kissing him. I felt really bad, and it was like I was doing something really sinful.
So yeah, I think I need help. Right now I can't even IMAGINE myself going out clubbing at all.
It's just so shameful!
But again, you would never think I'd have that problem because I'm just me in front of you.
I even tell you when I'm going to take a dump which btw I find to be very cool. :D
We'd be the perfect roommate, and I won't even have to buy my own books, you'll just buy it all for me, and I can just borrow em'. >:)
I was googling at some of the lofts and wow, what I really like about em' is that the windows are HUGE. It goes all the way from the floor to the celing on the SECOND floor!
I definitely love the stairs, they're so GRANDE.
And imagine all that SPACE. The vast space we'll have. Hahahahaha.
But what I'd definitely want is an apartment loft, then we'd get to watch the sunset, and hopefully we'd have the view of the city.
I really doubt I'll be able to afford this by myself though, so we'd definitely have to be roommates!
Oh and I have a few ideas for the interior design of the place. I was thinking like red and white walls, with wooden planked floors, and lots and lots of mirrors and windows!
Something like this, but the red could be darker:
Or we could have it look more modern, grey with white and wooden furnitures:
Hahaha, I'm going overboard with this! But whatever we do, there should be wooden stuff in our apartment loft!
I really like doing interior decorations, I think I could also possibly be an interior decor in the future.
Check out this website : http://www.huelsta.co.uk/uk_en/segment_uk_en/living/index.html
They have REALLY nice interior design ideas, it's just beautiful.
I'm quite glad I'm going to be able to do Design & Technology for A levels next year, maybe for coursework I could design our own home in the future! Oh and, mats under our living room tea table is a must. :)
So now, all I have to do, is succeed in life. Hahaha, i might not have big dreams for what I want to do, but I sure have big dreams for the things I want in the future. Check out this weirdass loft I found on google:
To be honest, I'm so scared for the future. Time is flying by at the speed of light, and I'm afraid I'm not properly spending every single minute of my life, for example right now, maybe I could be doing something productive and useful, instead of googling all this shit about my dream home. And then in a year I'd wish I'd have done something more useful, in two years when I'm in college I'd wish I'd have done better with myself, and when i apply for a job, I'd be thinking of how I wish I'd have done better in college. And it'll just go on forever and forever and my life will just be full of regrets you know?
I know you're not supposed to think like that, but it just scares me.
Yet it doesn't scare me enough to work hard instead of lying around the house, writing on blogs, going on skype, and chatting with friends.
It's fucked up :/
Anyways I shall get going now, need to study for my practical this Thursday, I can't wait! :)
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